Jamez Sitings: Grieving Is Weird (Upon the Death of Annais Melson)

Grieving is weird

It hits you in waves

The first wave is numbing

it can last for seconds

or days

 

weeks

 

years

 

forever

 

never know how long it’ll last

 

It’s passage is always shocking

Catches you unaware

Leaving you in tears

which is the next wave …

 

Tears

 

Uncontrollable

Inexplicable tears

I don’t understand their intensity

their ferocity

 

My body heaves

Sighs

come out as screams

 

Mourning is like a flame

that starts at your feet

then reaches your heart

and let’s itself out through your head.

 

Then it passes

leaving silence

making way for the next waves

of numbness

of tears

the waves of memories

unfolding

 

good times

bad times

that made up a lifetime lost

 

And the tears come again

 

this time with quiet feeling

reflection

sincere sense of loss

 

You tell yourself

“Life goes on”.

 

and

 

life goes on.